lately I don't really know who I am. I have gained four relationships and lost three, I highly suspect the one I have now to brust into flame any day now. In all the confusing emotions I have had in the past three months of this mayhem I have lost myself ... who I am ... or who I was.
In my mind I am still attached to one relationship. I went out with a guy named jesse blackwell and continueously he shreaded my heart every time i gave it, which because I'm obbessed with him was alot. He said once that he loved me but I think that was a lie. I think I want him but my problem is that I fatasize about him and now I cant tell what emotions I have gotten from him and what I have gotten from the illusions. Right now my head is extreamly fucked up and I'm depressed by my existing at all. Even though I love the boyfriend I have now I don't think he really likes me...guys ask me out for no reason, or it seams to be a pattern as of late.
You know your sad when you're bisexual and still can't find real love, even with the girls I have dated I'm not loved...was there a point to this????????????????? awww fuck it